Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Letting Go

Today I  had a lot to get off my chest. The pressure within of knowing that I need to be doing more, and taking steps forward (yet continuing to sit still) has been overwhelming. I decided to add prayer to my daily practice of meditation. Not the praying I did as child, where I prayed to a God that I was terrified of....but rather, prayer in which I was talking with a universal God source, who is full of love and light and connects me with everyone and everything.
Not really knowing what to say ~ I struggled with this concept a little.... Finally just saying "I am scared and I need help." All at once  was filled with a sense of peace and a knowledge that the answers and help I seek are always connected to me. I spend some time soaking this in. Then I began talking/praying about where I felt like I was failing and where I needed help. About half way through, I had an overwhelming feeling to just stop "talking" and worrying. Then I "heard" Surrender and just let go. If you let go of all of this, and the things you have not yet spoken, it will all fix itself. Just let go. After that there was no need to talk or think. I sat in my meditation without another word, just a renewed sense of peace.
Now comes the work.....learning to let go and surrender. Taking the practice of surrender, that I practice daily on my yoga mat, and bringing it into my every day life. It will take some time and practice and a whole new attitude of trust. Trust that things are working out just as they should. It will require a daily attitude of faith and gratitude. I am beyond grateful for all that I have...but I need to find a way to take it one step deeper. I want to wake up feeling happy and grateful to start my day. That's my work for the next month....wish me luck =)