She tries to sleep...

She tries to sleep
Sleep off the anxiety.
Sleep off the fears
Sleep off the ever growing dissatisfaction
Sleep off all the disillusionment
Bring herself back to a state of sanity
Yet , when she closes her eyes
Drifting softly off to sleep
Her fears invade her dreams
Wave after wave of fear, wash over her
Crashing all around her
Knocking her to her knees
Over and over again
In unrelenting waves
Her fears keep coming
Drowning her in their presence
Leaving no air
No room to breathe
Sweaty and hot she battles
Battles her way back out
Out of the nightmares
Back to her present
Gasping for air
She throws the blankets off
And just like that.
She is back in reality
Heart racing. ...
Talking to herself
Bringing herself back...
Naming items she can see...
Turning on lights
Letting go of her dreams
Tired and weary
She knows...
There is another day to meet. .
Smiles and love
She will pour freely out
Watching the day go slowly by
Watching the hours
Feeling the anxiety begin to creep..
Minute by minute
Gaining force with every hour
Finding it's way to her heart
Her throat ..her head...her ears
Telling her all the things she can't do
Slowly killing her aspirations,  her hopes
Her sanity ever closer to the edge
She finds her way home
Crawls into bed
She just needs to let it all go
She tries to sleep....

I want...

I want to run naked through the forest
Fast, Wild and Free
Feel the wind rush my skin
Feel the earth beneath my feet

I want to play naked in the storms
Dance to the thunder
Revel in the magic of the lighting
Allowing it to reveal in small flashes
All that really is
I want to feel the rain drops glide across my skin
Unencumbered, dripping from my fingers, breast and nose

I want to swim naked in the ocean
Dive deep within it depths
Play with the dolphins
Feel the seaweed tickle my toes
I want to feel the power of the ocean
Jealously pulling me back with the tide
Holding me, begging me not to leave
I want to feel the love
Of being rocked within the oceans embrace
Feeling that moment of hesitation
Before reluctantly pushing me back to shore
With only the promise of my return

I want to lay naked on the beach
Feel my fingers and toes in the sand
Feel the suns love as he warms my skin
I want to laugh and play freely along the shore
Teasing the ocean waves
Watching them build, beckoning for my return

I want to dance naked in the forest
Under the soft light of the moon
Feel the earths beat and rythmn begin to match my own
I want to close my eyes
Hearing the crackling of fire
Hear the sounds of the night time woodland creatures
I want to sing my song to the trees
Hear them echo it in the wind
A song that can only be heard by one
The one whose soul matches mine

I want to stand naked by the fire
My body illuminated by the flames
My hips moving seductively to the fires song
Waiting for the one who hears my song

When my lover comes
I want to stand naked together
No spoken words
Just feeling a force stronger than us both
Pulling us closer and closer together
Eyes locked, we take each others hand
Only the sound of coyotes in the wind
Our hands explore each other
Our hearts connect our spirits as one
For our souls are very old friends
We have been here before
Our lips will find each other
Unlocking all the passion of the fire
All the power of the ocean
In the heat of this moment
Our bodies will match our souls
Intertwining into one
Making love openly and wildly

I want to sleep naked on the soft grass
Under the watch of the stars and moon
Wrapped within the arms of my wild love
Open and vulnerable
Feeling the power of trust

I want to run naked and open in life
With my soul mate by my side
So meet me in the ocean, the sand, the rain
Listen for the trees to sing my song
Bring only your passion and heart
Meet me in the woods love
Find me naked by the fire
Protected by the moon
Find me love
I'm waiting
 

The stars

Lost beneath the stars

You slip your hand in mine

Fire fills my body

I lose all sense of time

You turn to kiss me

Stars reflecting in your eyes

There is a hunger between us

A passion only we can tame

We explore each others bodies

While the stars shine brilliantly
 Night creeping closer to day
The moon speaks her approval
Casting her light around you 

Sensuously
Illuminating your body

In that moment
We both are nearing peak

And when we begin to come down

You sleepily whisper in my ear

Words of desire 

Only meant for me to hear

You pull me closer
We both drift off to sleep
Safe in each others arms
A precious moment to keep

We may not have tomorrow

We may only have today

But we made magic under the stars love
We made memories that can not fade way

She Deserves ....

She deserves to be cradled and loved, able to feel and be fluent in her emotions.

She deserves to wake up fresh and renewed at a soul level.

She deserves to live life with the fluidity of the oceans and streams she loves so much.

She deserves to feel warm and cared for.

She deserves that same feeling she gets from the sun warming her body and spirit.

She deserves to feel as desired as she does when the wind caresses her skin.

She deserves long conversations where she is free to speak her truth.

She deserves to be heard without repercussions by someone she loves.

She deserves the back and forth wisdom in conservation, like she gets from the trees.

She deserves to feel grounded and steady.

She deserves love that will hold her up like the earth under her feet.

She deserves to feel as safe and loved as she does wrapped in the magic of the moon.

She deserves the wild freedom she feels playing in the storms.

For you see...

Nature has taught her about loving herself, has taught her she is never alone.

Nature has taught her to dig deep and find herself. 

Taught her through life lessons about burning and dying to be reborn.

She has learned to start from nothing again and again.

This Goddess is a mighty up an coming warrior.

She doesn't have time for those who seek to pull her from her path.

Her heart is open in spite of all the wounds.

The power she is taking back will make her more powerful than many are comfortable with.

So...

Anyone who becomes apathetic with her heart and soul....

Anyone who shuts down or leaves when she has nothing left to give....

Anyone who refuses to pick up and sword and fight these battles with her....

Anyone who only seems to love her when she is giving them something....

Anyone who only loves her when she fits the "picture" of what they think she should be....

All these "anyone's" will have to go...

For she still has many lessons to learn and to teach..

And only those strong enough to love her right where she is at...

Love her strength  as much as her short comings

Only those deserve the love she freely offers....

And now that you know....

You can not blame her if you don't make the cut

For not just anyone can hold the magic she possesses 

It will take the "someones" who can see her....

 The someones who can feel her spirit.... 

The someones that deserves this same kind of friendship,  magic and love.

~Anita

Game

Desire

Hold me in the ocean of your love
Let me drown in waves of desire
May our ecstacy build
Peak after peak
Colliding with the sand
In deep rhythmatic roars
Peaking in one large wave
Crashing to shore
And just when we think we are done
May the under current of our longing
Pull us out into the ocean once more
Breathless with passion
Blending, exploring and crashing into each other
Over and over
In lifetime after lifetime

Hang on....

If you find yourself in the mist of a horrific storm
Remember this
The storm may be catastrophic
Hang on                    
Yes it is dark...
The winds are howling with voracious force          
You may feel like you can't hold on another second
You can
You may feel the sharp cuts
From the pounding of debris hitting your body without mercy      
Hang on  
The waters may rush over you
Leaving you feeling like you can't breathe
You may feel as if letting go
And drowning it
Is your only option
It's not....just hang on...
Ride it out.....
It may beat you down
You may have to hold on for dear life
It may take every bit of strength that you possess to do it
But you have that strength
Just know
The winds will die down
The waters will recede        
The sun will return
After the storm
You will have to drag your bruised, muddy body out of the abyss..
You will have to hold your head high
You will have to search for light
Nothing will seem familiar
It will be far from easy...
But you are stronger than you think
Things will get better
Keep moving towards the light..
Even if its just a glimmer
I promise that little by little
Day by day.....
You will get stronger
You will find your smile
You will laugh and dance
You will find your rainbow..
And once you have made it through.
You will no longer fear the storms.
For you will know they are just a wild ride
Leading to great adventures