Friday, July 22, 2016

Letter to those who are struggling

I wrote this for a friend a while back. I think that maybe we need to extend the same kind of love to ourselves. That we have to be our own hero and best friend. We should extend this to others as well, knowing the love and friendship may never be returned. That's okay because when we learn to be our own hero...we really don't need anyone. Those in our lives are there because we want them to be. We lose the attachment of need and we find our own strength. Warriors can find and battle their way out of the dark woods. We always survive and our scars become our stories....our legacy. We all tell them in our own way. Mine will always be with words and soon dance. 
To those in my life struggling, here is a reminder of your greatness and your strength...
I will be here if you need me....

Sweet beautiful girl
One day you are going to meet someone that will love you through your darkness. Someone who will pick up your broken pieces, and show you how beautiful you are.  They will see you start to spiral and they will pull you closer.  They will help bring balance and they will stay.
One day you will meet that person who won't leave. The love that will really see you.You will find your light in darkness. And I know, god I know, that right now it feels like things are darker than they have ever been. You are not alone in the dark, I am here. People like us don't go  through all that we have been through, to just give up. We don't cave just because someone can't handle our hurricane. We rest and we fight. We are warriors, it's always been our path. We shall not go out easily...warriors never do.
It's okay to rest today.  Lay down your sword and let me hold your pain, your insecurity, your anger. Breathe, for a moment, free of is burden. Allow your strength to build. I can hold it for us both.
I see you. I see your beauty, and I won't leave you. I will protect you with my life, with the very essence of who I am. I won't let anyone hurt you while you breathe. I know it's hard to trust because everyone has let you down. I know you have heard this over and over. I know how vulnerable you feel in these moments.  I know how it feels so hear me when I say, I won't let you down.
Rest until you are ready. And you when you are...I will hand you your sword and I will help you fight your way out of this dark forest. I will not leave your side until you are in a safer space. One day those that have left and hurt you, in search of something better, will realize they had everything they needed in you. That all the new adventures and loves pale to the storm that is you. They will look back and see that you are even more beautiful than you were. That all of the unrest and hurt and fighting have strengthened you. That your broken pieces are an unbelievably beautiful form of art. Then they will finally see you, but the winds of your strength will keep you safe from further damage. They will be left to marvel at your greatness and wonder how they ever let you get away. You are going to be okay, I promise. You are going to happy and free again. You are going to find your way out of this forest, away from the abyss. You are going to have the most amazing life. But first, you have to take care of yourself. You have to let everything go and just breathe.  Rest my beautiful friend....I have this.