She tries to sleep...

She tries to sleep
Sleep off the anxiety.
Sleep off the fears
Sleep off the ever growing dissatisfaction
Sleep off all the disillusionment
Bring herself back to a state of sanity
Yet , when she closes her eyes
Drifting softly off to sleep
Her fears invade her dreams
Wave after wave of fear, wash over her
Crashing all around her
Knocking her to her knees
Over and over again
In unrelenting waves
Her fears keep coming
Drowning her in their presence
Leaving no air
No room to breathe
Sweaty and hot she battles
Battles her way back out
Out of the nightmares
Back to her present
Gasping for air
She throws the blankets off
And just like that.
She is back in reality
Heart racing. ...
Talking to herself
Bringing herself back...
Naming items she can see...
Turning on lights
Letting go of her dreams
Tired and weary
She knows...
There is another day to meet. .
Smiles and love
She will pour freely out
Watching the day go slowly by
Watching the hours
Feeling the anxiety begin to creep..
Minute by minute
Gaining force with every hour
Finding it's way to her heart
Her throat ..her head...her ears
Telling her all the things she can't do
Slowly killing her aspirations,  her hopes
Her sanity ever closer to the edge
She finds her way home
Crawls into bed
She just needs to let it all go
She tries to sleep....

I want...

I want to run naked through the forest
Fast, Wild and Free
Feel the wind rush my skin
Feel the earth beneath my feet

I want to play naked in the storms
Dance to the thunder
Revel in the magic of the lighting
Allowing it to reveal in small flashes
All that really is
I want to feel the rain drops glide across my skin
Unencumbered, dripping from my fingers, breast and nose

I want to swim naked in the ocean
Dive deep within it depths
Play with the dolphins
Feel the seaweed tickle my toes
I want to feel the power of the ocean
Jealously pulling me back with the tide
Holding me, begging me not to leave
I want to feel the love
Of being rocked within the oceans embrace
Feeling that moment of hesitation
Before reluctantly pushing me back to shore
With only the promise of my return

I want to lay naked on the beach
Feel my fingers and toes in the sand
Feel the suns love as he warms my skin
I want to laugh and play freely along the shore
Teasing the ocean waves
Watching them build, beckoning for my return

I want to dance naked in the forest
Under the soft light of the moon
Feel the earths beat and rythmn begin to match my own
I want to close my eyes
Hearing the crackling of fire
Hear the sounds of the night time woodland creatures
I want to sing my song to the trees
Hear them echo it in the wind
A song that can only be heard by one
The one whose soul matches mine

I want to stand naked by the fire
My body illuminated by the flames
My hips moving seductively to the fires song
Waiting for the one who hears my song

When my lover comes
I want to stand naked together
No spoken words
Just feeling a force stronger than us both
Pulling us closer and closer together
Eyes locked, we take each others hand
Only the sound of coyotes in the wind
Our hands explore each other
Our hearts connect our spirits as one
For our souls are very old friends
We have been here before
Our lips will find each other
Unlocking all the passion of the fire
All the power of the ocean
In the heat of this moment
Our bodies will match our souls
Intertwining into one
Making love openly and wildly

I want to sleep naked on the soft grass
Under the watch of the stars and moon
Wrapped within the arms of my wild love
Open and vulnerable
Feeling the power of trust

I want to run naked and open in life
With my soul mate by my side
So meet me in the ocean, the sand, the rain
Listen for the trees to sing my song
Bring only your passion and heart
Meet me in the woods love
Find me naked by the fire
Protected by the moon
Find me love
I'm waiting