She tries to sleep...

She tries to sleep
Sleep off the anxiety.
Sleep off the fears
Sleep off the ever growing dissatisfaction
Sleep off all the disillusionment
Bring herself back to a state of sanity
Yet , when she closes her eyes
Drifting softly off to sleep
Her fears invade her dreams
Wave after wave of fear, wash over her
Crashing all around her
Knocking her to her knees
Over and over again
In unrelenting waves
Her fears keep coming
Drowning her in their presence
Leaving no air
No room to breathe
Sweaty and hot she battles
Battles her way back out
Out of the nightmares
Back to her present
Gasping for air
She throws the blankets off
And just like that.
She is back in reality
Heart racing. ...
Talking to herself
Bringing herself back...
Naming items she can see...
Turning on lights
Letting go of her dreams
Tired and weary
She knows...
There is another day to meet. .
Smiles and love
She will pour freely out
Watching the day go slowly by
Watching the hours
Feeling the anxiety begin to creep..
Minute by minute
Gaining force with every hour
Finding it's way to her heart
Her throat ..her head...her ears
Telling her all the things she can't do
Slowly killing her aspirations,  her hopes
Her sanity ever closer to the edge
She finds her way home
Crawls into bed
She just needs to let it all go
She tries to sleep....