Warriors

If I Die Today

If I die today
And my spirit floats gently to the heavens
Up and away
Will you know all the things I never could say
Will you know how my heart loves yours
That even staring into the abyss
It was your light that gave me peace
Will you know how my body yearned for yours
How much I wanted to tell you I love you
But kept those words under lock and key
Will you know the sound of your breathing at night was keeping me alive
For you fought away the nightmares of other things I couldn't speak
When my spirit leaves
Will you know that a piece of it will be with you wherever you go
So sleep my love in peaceful serenity
I am here
For, from you I can never go
We have loved in more lifetimes than you know   
You are my light, my love, my dream
Feel me in the rain, the wind,
Feel me under the sun and moon
You are love
I will be near
Making sure the light shines on you even when all seems dark
Sleep my love until your body can no longer hold your massive spirit
For that is why most of our bodies die
Find me, when your spirit drifts to the heavens
I won't be far

Darkness and Hope

~Another old post....

Sitting alone under the vast night sky
Staring at the stars that twinkle so high
Wishing for answers to all that she seeks
Desperation and fear begin to creep
She is on the edge of losing it all
Knowing she will be all alone when she falls
Loved by so many
Yet she always feels numb
Wishing and praying for the light to come
The light that will open her eyes and her heart
To let her step out in the sun
Each night spend praying for more control
To the moon she pours out her heart and her soul
Needing to know
Hating to trust
Wishing that she was enough
Haunted by a past that won't go away
Leaves her fighting this war everyday
No one will know of the battle inside
No one will feel the pain that she hides
Looking for someone that she can let in
Praying she won't hurt again
Someone to love her and never let go
Bringing the light to her heart and her soul
Chasing away all the fear and the pain
Letting her dance in the rain
Shes all alone when she closes her eyes 
Dreaming of a bright sun filled sky

My Ramblings for Today....

I have found myself seeking magic over the last few months. Not the wave your wand kind of magic (although I have to admit I would love that kind) but the everyday magic that makes life wonderful. It is finding the wonder and beauty in everything. It is seeing those you love light up when you walk through the door, it is a hug that says everything, a look from a friend that lets you know that they get where your at, it is the laughter of my children, the list goes on and on.
  In looking for that magic, I have found it in all those places  and in places I never thought I would. I have found it in the soft glow of the moon. In the whispers from the trees....in the sound and flow of water. I have found it in the love and friendships that emerged and held me up. In those around me who always seem to believe in me.....and are always reminding me of my power and worth....even when I can't see it myself.  It has also left me more sensitive to areas that I am not seeing it, areas that I thought would be the easiest to find it. Areas where I was trying to force the magic that I wanted to see. Magic is all around me ...you ...all of us. Its not about seeking it....or finding it.....its about opening your eyes and heart to all the amazing love energy and magic around you everyday. That kind of magic builds on itself and grows into something that leaves you breathless. Grateful everyday for the amazing friends and loved ones who reminded of that .....and pulled me back into my moon lit ...glitter filled world of fairies and talking trees.  Namaste...